I couldn't sleep last night. I was overcome with guilt. One of Satan's most powerful tools. Guilt that I was warm in bed why Will was literally freezing. Guilt that I didn't do more to help him. Guilt that we even bought the stupid car. After fighting the horrible thoughts and images running through my head, I turned to the scriptures.
"Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." John 14:27
Will is going to pull out of this. He is strong enough to make it through this. And so am I. I know this because I have a loving heavenly father who is always there to comfort me in time of need.
I am filled with peace.
I am grateful for the gospel.
I am grateful for the priesthood.
I am grateful for the power of prayer.
I am grateful for so many willing to do anything to help, and for all of your prayers.
I know this trial, like all others, is all part of Gods plan.
"It's not bad luck, it's by design." -Heather Tolley
Continue to pray for Will, our prayers will be answered.
Will had a good night, they were able to keep his body temperature low. Soon he will be home eating the raspberries I picked for him yesterday.
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When I was talking to Soni last night about all of this. I was so worried about all the guilt that you would be feeling.
I remember the guilt that I felt with my father died. I remember the guilt that I felt when my grandma died and when Grandpa Anderson died and Steve. Guilty that I had not done more, and not been a more involved person in their lives.
Cara, God does have a plan, and that plan we must follow. Guilt unfortunately is one of the worst symptoms that one can feel. Satan can be very strong during those moments of guilt, take my word for it.
I was happy to read your blog and to hear you say "He is strong enough to make it through this. And so am I"
Remember that. You are strong. You are one of the strongest persons that I know. Besides Soni maybe. I don't know you are a very strong and the most compassionate person that I know.
Know that if you need anyone to rely on, know that you can rely on us. I know that You have lots of family with you right now, and I so wish that we could just drive up there right now and give you the biggest hug.
Know that whatever happens, is what is suppose to happen. To have faith in Gods plan, and what his plan is for you. That there IS a silver lining in all things.
We love and miss you so much Cara, and know that our prayers are with you. They always have been and they always will be.
Thinking of your family and our prayers are with all of you!!!!!!! You both are so strong and faithful!!! Let me know if you need someone to watch Lincoln anytime!
We just heard and are praying for you, WIll, and Lincoln. Please please please let me know if there is anything that I can do-dinner, babysitting, running errands for you, seriously anything. You guys are in our thoughts and prayers, and we miss you being in our ward!
Just thought you would like to know that there are random strangers praying for your family - my name is Karin and I Soni's friend - my heart goes out to you - our prayers are with you - Karin
Umm.. wow. I am so sorry Cara. I haven't seen you in person for a really long time but I love to read your blog and just came across your news. I know you are probably hearing this like crazy but please call me if you need anything. ANYTHING AT ALL. I have two small boys who would love to play with Lincoln if you want me to babysit. I can run errands for you. Clean your home. Anything. Please just let me know. I will send you a facebook message with my phone number.
Cara, I cannot even begin to tell you how sorry I am. You have been in my thoughts constantly since I heard about this. We fasted for Will today. I have said about a dozen prayers throughout today for you and Will. There are so many people that love you guys. Prayer and fasting are amazing things. I can't wait for Will to be home eating your raspberries either.
Oh wow. I am so sorry. Our family is praying for you guys.
Hugs & Prayers,
Christina
Jacob's Momma
We thought of you today during church and a hymn came to mind that we wanted to share with you.
It's hymn #128:
i will not doubt i will not fear, god's love and strength are always near, his promised gifts help me to find an inner strength and peace of mind. i give the father willingly, my trust, my prayers, humility. i give the father willingly, the spirit guides, his love assures, that fear departs when faith endures i will not doubt i will not fear, god's love and strength are always near, when faith endures.
We will continue to keep you in our prayers and hope that God will give you the peace and faith that you need in this difficult time. We love you!
I loved reading the comments on this post (crying again). I am just blown away by all the friends and family who are so willing to do anything, absolutely ANYTHING to help, and I know they mean it. They are angels! Makes me feel better knowing there are all those angels there to take care of your little family.
Continue with your faith and strength. You guys are remarkable.
It's 8:15 a.m. here in TN, and I'm anxiously waiting to hear some news. I'm pacing.
Prayers will continue here. People back here are praying for you that you don't even know. Remarkable.
Raspberries forever!!
Cara,
If there is anyone strong enough to endure such a difficult trial it's you and Will. I am grateful that you understand the tactics of the adversary and are not allowing yourself to beat yourself up with guilt. We are continuing to pray for you and Will. Know that we are literally just around the corner.
Bill and Cara,
Our hearts are will you in this difficult time. I wish there was something that we could do.
Love,
Mark and Shalea
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